Sometimes
11 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
I can’t remember the last time
We didn’t need a fight
To talk about important things
Just to prove ourselves right
I don’t remember the first month
When our thing first began
While everything seemed perfect
We thought up a failing plan
So that’s how we got here
Why did we get here?
Sometimes people break
When they try a little too hard
And the worst part is the last part
Cause they’re the disregard
And I guess it’ll be alright
When we remember those old nights
Long ago
I’d forgotten myself
Just as you had lost control
This ride was getting faster
And we had no lasting goal
And we don’t know how
To keep ourselves together
Some feelings just change
But we can make it for the better
This is how we got here
Now I know
Sometimes people break
When they try a little too hard
And the worst part is the last part
Cause they’re the disregard
And I guess I’ll be fine
When I remember those nights
Once upon a time, this is how we got here
Once upon a time, this is how we got here
More Than a Visit
21 May 2010 Leave a Comment
I spent years looking
Thinking no one would find me
Every person who came through, just didn’t stay beside me
When you came to me
A new path was visible
I didn’t know you could make this so indescribable
How do I tell you the way I’m feeling?
For even sweet words have no way of doing
What you do to me
And how does one say to another what they mean to them?
For you mean to me more than I could ever tell you
When we first met, we were just as young
I didn’t realize then, that you wouldn’t run away
And now I know so much better
I find it hard not to remember
What it is you do to me
How do I tell you exactly what I’m feeling?
Though hard to show, I can’t keep this sealed in
How do I tell you how much I care?
For you have given me something so rare
So hold on so tight, try your best not to go
Cause I need you here, I need you here now
Don’t let me fall, don’t let me go
Don’t let me fall, don’t let me go
How do I tell you how much I need you?
For we are given one shot exactly
If only you knew
Quick to be Wrong
07 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment
I’m trying every day
To be everything you need
This vibe I’m giving off is planted like a seed
Deep inside your heart and running from my lips
Sometimes words I speak
Aren’t the right fit for me
I try to be so much bigger than I am
Hoping if I’m capable
Then it’s everything but wrong
And that’s where I go wrong
I took a turn for my life
I’m wondering, was that right?
More Like You
28 Dec 2009 Leave a Comment
It’s quite true, not a lie
I have you in my life
You’re so much better than anyone else who’s come around
I want to appreciate so much more of what I have found
But I’m still bound, still bound
You’re the compensation
For all the things I’ve lost
And I know how impolite that sounds
But hear me out, I want to be more like you
I wanna forgive and forget
I wish I could paint the walls over
I wanna fall down when I think about you
But I was caught by clever
Well, honey, I’m trying
I’m still giving my best
But don’t count on me
You know the rest
You know, you’ve said so much more than any other to come around
I want to appreciate so much more of what I have found
But I’m still bound, still bound
You’re the compensation
For all the things I’ve lost
And I know how impolite that sounds
But hear me out, I want to be more like you
I wanna forgive and forget
I wish I could paint the walls over
I wanna fall down when I think about you
But I was caught by clever
I wanna paint these walls over and fall down
Honey, I’m trying
I wanna fall down
But I was caught by clever
Hear me out, I wish I was more like you
Your Game
03 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
I can just remember you faintly
You were a grinner and a rebel
You were as slick as the devil
So you slipped right through my fingers
Even while my feelings still lingered
Somehow when you were so near
I still needed you here
When I hold on to you
When I let you go
Nothing makes a difference
We’re always at our distance
I remember your words
Wishing me well in this world
You were clever and innocent
But you never said what you meant
You slip right through my fingers
And still my feelings linger
Somehow while you’re so near
I still need you here
I’m lost beyond your thoughts
I was tricked into a game
And even though it’s over
I still feel I’m the one to blame
Though I am not ashamed of myself
When I hold on to you
When I let you go
Nothing makes a difference
We’re always at our distance
I remember you as you are now
So much you have changed
Oh how this makes my heart deranged
For you could never be the same
And I will never forget your smooth game
So you slipped right through my fingers
Even while my feelings still lingered
Somehow when you were so near
I still needed you here
Nature vs. Nature
03 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
I witnessed the last leaf
Swaying slowly to the cold ground
Made it through fall
Managed through winter, not a sound
I expected the leaves to spread
Upon the trees, inside your head
But all trees die
Yeah, this one is dead
I saw each branch crumble
Every piece falling apart
Hoping to see spring again
Prepared for a steady start
I expected the leaves to spread
Upon the trees, autumn red
Though all trees die, can this one really be dead…
Forgive me nature, I must be wrong
For going against you
When I knew you were that strong
We have stumbled
The growth was fumbled
That tree knew all too well
Partly ready
So quickly it fell
Intefering Thoughts
03 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
i find my peace within myself
never easy, always possible
when i lay down, i think for a moment
and even hours
i wonder, i wonder
and i really need to wander
i realize anything that’s happened
mostly the disappointing events
often the mistakes
and then throw it away from the mind
but tomorrow, i’ll regret all over again
yesterday was different than today
it always is
i could replay the same day
but it would change
maybe i would frown
or i could laugh hysterically
it’s only what i make it
when we have interferences
all we have to do is pass through them
but we easily let them get to us
perhaps we let them ruin our day
when all that’s needed to be done is to forget
and forgetting has been forgotten
but tomorrow i see a change
i see my friends smiling
i see my sisters hugging
i see my dogs jumping
and i know, i could have it that way
so i must stop wondering about what it could be
and i must start thinking about how it can be
Patience
03 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
Where a rose does not last
We soon withered too
I was told you wouldn’t leave
I had every right to believe
But changes took their space
And I suddenly lost my place
In silence, you took steps further away
I will never regret
The way you made me smile when I didn’t want to
I will never forget
The promises you made to come true
Maybe patience will get me back to you
Where did the feeling go…
I must be alone with thinking it’s alright
Cause if I ever pull you back into sight
Would you ever be the same with me…
It’s only what we make it
Can’t we make it, meant to be
I’m just not ready, I never was
I must have thought you were someone else
But I don’t need something new
That’s why I had you
So patience, I will wait on you
My One Hold
03 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
I searched for the good in this
I hoped for someone to just come along
But it’s all that I wish for
To have you back in my sight
The feeling you gave me felt so right
Thinking I could leave it all behind
How impossible it now seems
If only this reality could be a dream
I do this to myself
There’s no one else for me
I want you to see
You’re all that I can find
My one hold
I learned that you’re done
I hope for you to just come along
There’s no point in me hiding it
When it was never hidden before
To be honest, it’s you I still adore
I appreciated your words
I believed your promises
Then you took them away
You thought I could forget
But I just prayed you would stay
I keep running back to you
And I know you’re so through with it all
But for some reason
You’re the person I miss the most
You are my one hold
Catastrophe
03 Oct 2009 Leave a Comment
How come you never notice anymore
You used to show up at the door
I got so used to seeing you
You’re never where you used to be
You should be around
We shouldn’t have to wait to know
Cause I’m missing your Hellos
While I remember your Goodbye
I’m losing who I want to be
Now that you are over me
Welcome to my catastrophe
You were the one I knew
The only one, I still dream of you
Because even just the thought of you
Would never be enough
Catastrophe, why can’t you just leave
This isn’t helping me
When this is done
When you’re filled on your fun
I will abandon you, dear catastrophe
Why do I struggle here
How come you’re never near
This is how I’ve been changed
But is it for the better
Cause I never fell so hard
I’d never hit the floor
For anyone but you before
I want to be who I was
Instead of who I’ve come to be
Now that you’ve forgotten me
This is my catastrophe
